Goodbye

The course of my decisions in life

has caused me to fail myself before

and probably will again.

But I must be true to that which fills me

top to bottom…

and warns me to be myself,

when myself is lost in love,

and my love is lost in life.

Always in my life there was happiness,

there was warmth, so great, so strong,

never did I doubt,

Never did I toil so at the labor of love.

Never did the love of that labor cause me such aching,

such heart for the breaking.

Before now there was never such low self esteem,

such lacking of dreams,

never was such a feeling of hopelessness

in every day life,

Never was there the me that needed you

to see my own reflection.

There certainly never was.

So from here I will watch the descending relationship

and regard our failure as experience.

From here I will question my intentions

and seek my own future.

I am sure that from here

I will see another view of my reality

and perhaps my only companion will be regret.

But now I am certain

that I will always love you

and need you in my life as a friend.

I am certain that from here

two views we will be

and your view will be different

from the one that I see.

I am certain I must say goodbye

because I am not the one

to share your road in life,

Of this I am so sadly certain.

William Carey Clause Sr.